proud daddy moment.

i know, i know.  it's only school and everyone has to go (as sam put to me) but it just made me super happy to see ella all dressed up and ready for school and excited and wanting to go.  she looked lovely and was wide eyed and ready for it.  seems just yesterday she was at nursery.  sam did her proud with all her new togs.

it's hard to believe that's she actually started school but the world of education, learning and bonding starts now.  she's got a classroom of about 20/30 kids with her so i'm certain she will be making a bunch more friends today.  she's that kind of girl.

aww.  mission on to get that transport sorted now.

woke up at 4am, 5.15 something and finally up and out of bed at 5:45. i was out the door at 6 and at the train station for 6:20. my train, the 6:56 to cardiff central.

it's my daughters first day at school today, i'm really excited and weirdly 'proud' of her. it's odd to feel proud i guess but i just feel she's at that enquiring stage of her life where she will just revel in the information and input.

i've watched her over the last year in social circles at the play centre and with other groups of kids and she's always kind, willing to share and understanding. i've also seen her stand her ground too mind so i'm just hoping she will do all of these things in a measured approach to school.

ella starting school is a BIG deal. it's a big deal because i was supposed to have a car sorted by now. she finishes at a time that is perfect for me to work half a day on certain days and blast over in a car to pick her up from school. i've not sorted the car out yet mind. that's my goal right now.

expect pictures this morning of her starting school - glad i've got the ability to get over this morning. i should be back in nottingham for around lunchtime today.

i look back at all the pictures i've been taking over the last couple of months and the good news is that ella is always smiling, always happy.

if there is one thing that keeps me going it is that spirit that while we are on this planet we have the ability to fight. fight for a better world, better life and educate our children what good, bad and indifferent looks like.

when you see me down and low know this, it's only because i don't have my bella with me. because ultimately, everything outside of that is just me creating circumstances to get me with her again.

it's the only love i know.

16:53

head lonely
Spaced and vast
Traveller Ready
Failed mifi charge
connectivity lost
offgrid, offline and dull

brolly thoughts
wrapped around £2 special
the routine lack of resource
get away, time required anew
believed internal faith broken
but service patched
the life distro reconfigures

the red patched fabric seat
screams of previous self doubt
reflection and reminded
on steel tracked destinations
between the chaos greys
a sharp red stone rises
my transport a forgery

life has those surprises
devoid yet elaborate
the neurons balanced
under focused duress
in search of happy smiles
and raw new hearts
the land yet discovered
your imagery completes me
and for my sand grain existence
i allow myself to fall

you are my only story now
my eyes well and a love lost found emotional discourse overrides
creations anew in reflection

for if not you I did find
in this gas of space and time
my digital nomad soul
would surely perish
and I would return to clown.

discovery and exacting
a plotting course it seems
a formula, a structure
a creation of sights and beings
for you my special, my lovely
you hand so fresh and new
for me your soul completes me
and exist for you I do

/- dm

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those are days i currently get to see my bella and as much as i worry how i'm gonna get over there, thankfully due to friends and work coming in it can be done again this weekend.  i know i need to more work in thou as well.  sxsw and the jacket is absolutely about that.  looking forward to catching up with stateside friends after the london media rush next week.

i've put up an amazing shot of me and bella at LOVEphotography on my profile over on about.me - i wish i could have got the philcampbell but seems that the brooklyn version of me has that one or at least i never managed to get it at launch.  not to worry. .

back at LOVEphotography next week for some promo shots for the soft launch of the email updates/mailing list for the jackets.