listening to metallica on the way to get ella this morning certainly a different way to get started with my dead time blogging for sure.

got an overwhelming sense of time at the moment about everything. lots of factors as per usual – wanting to get progress and moving things forward is something that i always subscribe.

it’s been hard doing things on a budget of next to nothing thou when you still have expenses like trains, food and rent (when i can afford to pay it) for crashing at peoples pads. it’s always on my mind.

last night i had a bunch of terrible dreams, all scenes of some horror flick, my imagination is scary at the best of times but last night was extremely fragmented. i’m pretty whacked today. i need to eat lots of greens or mainline coffee.

i actually feel like i’m starting to turn to a fitness kick again, biking and cutting out coffee and reducing the amount of dairy i consume. less fried breakfast. i need the energy to be focused into being able to switch into these three projects that are taking shape finally now.

after getting the profit and loss sorted out about the rattlr/nomadjackets last week makes me see a business there and having alex (@aloox2) in the studio a few days in the evening to bounce ideas of over a few beers after was cool too.

i think with the phil campbell events in alabama with at least 25 people dying it kind of puts everything back into perspective.

i was only joking to friends that maybe the convention was to get all phil campbells together to take them out in one go. i sorta feel bad for even thinking that now. life can change in a glance – in fact in the last three years mine has.

it can be hard to keep focus and passion about the things that you think are the right things to do when everything around you seems to change so quickly.

i’m about to pick my bella up – she will be 4 in may (24th) and it scares me how fast that came around. i feel i have to pick up the pace, she starts school in september and i want to be able to pick her up from the gates like any parent would want too.

i want my ark project started, we have a potential start of the £10k we need to find the other £15k now – had a few people putting forward about car sharing as well which is epic.

i find that swapping different projects – design, infrastructure, networking and ultimately money to maintain these things can be a lot of switching and sometimes it can be overwhelming.

but not today, today is ella and daddy day. thanks for listening interwebz.